Shocked Everywhichway
I grew up in Thailand. My Christian school and church comprised most of my social world, and reflected back to me a worldview I expected was universal.
Moving to Canada to attend Okanagan University College (now UBC-O) in Kelowna and then UBC in Vancouver didn't just put me literally on the other side of the world from where I grew up. It turned my world upside down and then shook it by the ankles to get the change out of the pockets. Right and wrong, heaven and hell, meaning and meaninglessness all got confused in my mind. Not only were culture shocks (from Thai to Canadian, Christian to secular, developing world to developed world, familiar to unfamiliar, private to shared) reverberating throughout me and re-arranging my internal world, but school was hard!
I suddenly had tons of questions I had never thought to ask, at a time when I was most doubtful of my ability to ask or answer! I mean, I was barely passing midterms, skipping whole questions because I didn't see them --how could I hope to maintain any grip on the really important issues of life?
Safe Place
UCM was a safe place for me during those turbulent times. I didn’t have much of a personal walk with God at the time so I really needed to lean on the strength and warmth of a community of faith. Attending the group meetings and core (small group) didn't always give me answers* (or, more likely, I was too consumed with my own problems to recognize the answers!) but they did do two things:
1) gave me a safe place to be myself and express my pain and my doubts, and
2) patiently re-affirmed the truths that I wanted to believe in but didn't always have the faith to: God is real, God is good, God is God, I can know Him, love is powerful, people are valuable, life has meaning, justice is achievable, God answers prayer, change is possible, our hope will not be disappointed.
UCM has a great culture that makes vulnerability less scary and nurtures trust. I was embraced by so many people who cared about me and my spirit, for no apparent reason! I didn't have to prove myself worthy of their attention, care or time.
*Note: I hope I'm not being misleading! UCM has a lineup of amazing speakers during the school year. It's a buffet! UCM staff, UBC and Regent profs, campus missionaries from around BC, overseas missionaries, people who run other ministries (e.g. to people struggling with addictions, homeless people)--there's incredible range in the speakers' backgrounds but consistently the talks are challenging, honest and relevant. Man, I could list so many speakers whose talks still echo in my heart and mind today.
As Inspiring as Digging a Hole
I left UBC and UCM in 2006, just a bit more confident in what I believed than when I arrived. My story isn’t very exciting, maybe about as inspiring as digging a hole! But digging a hole is a necessary part of building a strong foundation--and I really think that's what God was doing in me through my time at university. Obviously the earlier foundation wasn't strong enough! It couldn't hold up under the pressures of school and the complexities of life. UCM was a big part of the process of expanding and strengthening the foundation of my faith.
Wait a minute--'was'?!
Voted: Most Anti-Social
Should there ever be a 'Most Anti-Social UCM Alum Award', I'd definitely be a top contender for it. (I have never played Settlers of Catan! On Thursday nights, I came late and left early on purpose!) DESPITE this, UCM continues to richly bless me in the area of relationships, even today, eight years since I first connected with it. Much of the personal spiritual encouragement and peer discipleship I get now is from friends I met in UCM, particularly in the cores.
In 2008 I was going through a really difficult period at work in Singapore. I told a friend from UCM what I was going through. Her prayers and "check-in" emails were a critical support to me for more than a year, as God dealt with my character and my walk with Him. A few months ago I went to Europe for the first time to visit three friends I had come to know in core groups at UCM. I had a wonderful time, catching up, praying together and looking forward to what God has next for each of us!
UCM, this wonderful community of believers, continues to shape me and support me and I want it to for the rest of my life! My time at UCM planted seeds that have borne fruit that still feeds me. I have benefited so much from the work they do among students. That's why I'm 'championing' Kristen Hession! Go Kristen!
The Deets
Kristen and I were in the same UCM core group from 2004-05, and were fellow Geography Majors.